I don’t really talk about my relationships much on my blog cause I don’t but I feel the need to on this one. So I was dating J (I wont use his name) for 2 months and 9 days, I know its not long at but you know when you find someone and you have that feeling like you know this is “the one” or have a “good feeling” about him. Well I should have seen the signs and caught on but I was so played that I didn’t think J would do anything like this, I was so wrong I should have took everything he said about his past and put it in the present. Things he would say like this for instance “J: I love being fucked! Especially when I haven’t done it in like a WHILE always feels fucking amazing lol” he would say so many nice things to me and made me feel good and everything and he told me he was being such a good boy and that he was committed to me and wouldn’t lie and all this BS and LIES! I also should have thought about what he told me about when he was a child, how he let guys just fuck him bareback and they would use him and tell him he’s nothing and worthless… (well I have to agree now) You cant turn a whore into a boyfriend, once a whore always a whore! I knew something was going on when he said he had to spend time with his family on Valentines Day? Who the fuck spends time with family on the day of Love with your family if you have a BF. Then there was this supposed DUI shit that I’m sure is a lie as well, then my birthday that I didn’t get anything such as a text or call, my accident got nothing either but before that I got him a new cell phone. I made the biggest mistake by giving him money for a new phone but the signs were there to and it didn’t click, he said he would prostitute to make the money! which I said you sure the fuck will not! why are you gonna risk our relationship? he says “cause I need a new phone” so fucking stupid. Then J goes on to say I’ll make Xtube videos and I said no Ill buy you the phone, he then says no Ill feel bad and all and I said look your not doing either of what you said and your gonna take the money and I’m buying you this phone. That’s when I figured something was going on cause still after buying that phone I heard once from him! He was going to Cali for cheer and he didn’t talk the entire time he was in Cali to me and I knew he was up to something, I got the excuse “I didn’t have reception everywhere I was in Cali.” I didn’t believe that for shit and called his BS and stupid excuse didn’t say anything but sorry which at that point I was tired of it. Back to the accident he didn’t talk to me for 5 days and I said this is BS, so I started to ask around and see what I could dig up and sure enough I found out what I needed and everyone was right LIES, BS and DISGUSTING WHORE! I said sorry to one person cause turns out hes a good guy and I was told a LIE for a story and it’s not cleared up and we are gonna become good friends. I guess to end this post is a message to J… You will never ever find someone who will love you and you will never find love again, your always gonna be used and abused for the little WHORE you are. All you had to do was tell the truth like I had asked but you decided to lie and be sneaky but you were caught! Your low self esteem makes you the person you are and everything you said to me I’m sure you tell everyone else and that makes you a FAKE FUCK! You should seek help since your suicidal and think about killing yourself cause everyone HATES you including yourself and your family who tells you your worthless, oh wait everyone tells you that. Maybe you need to make a change like I thought you where and wanted to be happy and not be a BIG WHORE like your continuing to be which is sad, just make sure your you don’t call me about being scared about having HIV that should be a news flash to you. I wanted to be your friend in all this but I don’t wanna be cause your never ever gonna learn and your day will come and karma is a BITCH! Enjoy your life I hope it last long but the way your doing things like I told you before you’ll probably be to late to figure it out. Oh and one more thing before I go to bed… FUCK YOU! that’s all.
Good night y’all
Update! I’m being told not that it matters cause I’ve been home all night LOL that the poor thing thinks I stalked him and caught him! No boo boo I’m smarter then that and you told a friend of mine the wrong thing, and I do have every right to talk all the shit I am and will cause everyone needs to know about you. Maybe you will get more fuck buddies to use you that’s a good thing for you! LOL night.
What the hell else is gonna happen this week or in the next couple days?! While on the way to work today we get into a car accident that I was totally not expecting and I don’t believe Andrew was either. We were going to work and turned down N. 92st and we were talking and laughing and I look up and I see this car coming out of Blanch Dr, but we were in for a surprise! I see this kid looking at us in the car and it looked like he was gonna go but he hesitated… he made a very bad judgment and he hit the gas thinking he could make it and he was very wrong. I start to say OMG OMG OH MY GO (BOOOM) all I remember is my soda went everywhere and on my phone! and being hit really hard in the head by the airbag. I was out for about 5 seconds cause the airbag his me like a Mike Tyson punch, my first reaction to being in car accidents is to get the fuck out of the car cause I have a thing about them blowing up. I panic and get out and walk to the side wake and hit the floor cause I cant breath and was in shock and was dazed, I called my boss and told him we got in a car accident and this guy came over and was helping me and Andrew who was driving and was in shock as much as I was. The paramedics were called to come and check me out and I was in just so much shock that nothing was wrong (my ribs do hurt like a bitch) so they left and then me and Andrew had to fill out some paper work about the accident. It took an hour to do everything and there were school kids getting out of school and they were watching and looking and I was like mind your damn business! Then the police lady lost the boys ID we got into the accident with then started to laugh about the entire thing which wasn’t funny for my cause I was short of breath and in pain when I did. When the tow truck man took us to work we started to snap pictures of the car, it doesn’t look as bad but the impact was cause we were going about 40mph and the car was total. I’m just glad I don’t have any broken bones or was extremely injured or burned on my face from he Mike Tyson air bag from it being so hot, I’m all scared to get back in a car and I put the seat all the way back away from the air bag cause of me being extra paranoid now. I wanna thank everyone for all the love today its means so much to me, I am fine but my ribs hurt on the left side bad, tomorrow is gonna be another story and I’m not ready for that at all. Any who my boss gave me a muscle relaxer and its kicking in good so I am okay thank you guys again so much MUAH!
I am going through a hair situation and I need to figure out what the hell I’m gonna do with it cause my hair is getting long and its getting all in my ears and I hate things in my ears! I can either go back to shaving it all off or I can go back to platinum or a mohawk or black. I dunno lol I know that if I don’t think of something quick I’m gonna go insane with all this hair that’s nappy lol! I’m 25% black so I have the hair of a black person and I honestly hate my hair but my mom says “people would love to have your hair” I was like no I don’t think so mom lol, I can’t do really anything with it and that sucks! I would love o have Zac Efron hair or Justin Bieber hair or Kellan Lutz hair but I have some Diana Ross looking craziness going on lol but I need that changed and quick. I know Howard at www.Fabscout.com said “never do that mohawk again” I think that’s out of the question for my hair, so with that being said I have an idea but I’m not sure yet so maybe y’all can help me with this situation.
Just wanted to do a little post on a set for www.UndieTwinks.com I had forgot was done on one of the 3 shoots we had, I believe it was the second one I did these or maybe the last one. Anyways I just seen this set on QueerClick and took these pictures and wanted to post them here and shot you guys. I don’t really have much to say about this set but that I do love me some undies as most of you know, I hope you really like these pictures and I will be bringing you guys more as they come. Enjoy your night and tomorrow I’ll be posting another blog which I would like some feedback on.
So about 3 weeks ago on Sept 26-27th I was in Vegas with all my good friends for the last leg of the Britney Spears Concert at the Mandalay Bay and to also have good times and hang out. I had a group with me which included Jim Mason, Dallas, Adam Lucas, Angel Benton, Ryan Conner’s and Zak Miller who showed up Saturday afternoon but before that. Friday night I get in and Angel Benton welcomes me in to Vegas and we headed on over to my hotel the MGM which I’ve never been to, what a beautiful hotel the MGM is! I would have never thought ever just looking at the outside how beautiful the inside is, as I was walking through to get to my room Angel and I were talking and he said to me “OH GIRL! and I said what? he says look what is up ahead!” there was a Fat Tuesdays which is my favorite New Orleans place for a day time cocktail! I had to get a cocktail to welcome myself into Vegas! I got a 190 octane which is a lot cause that drink fucks you up! then tip toed to the room where I met up with Jim and Dallas! We had a little problem cause we were looking for Ryan Conners and it had been an hour when he had landed and we still wasn’t anywhere to be found? so we went downstairs to look for him and found him finally, his phone had died and he was standing in line to find our room for an hour and it was a mess! I think we rested for a little or we went out cause I got in at like 9 something, but anyways I don’t remember much of Vegas cause it was a while ago and I was drunk! I will say I remember being kicked out of Krave for doing the Single Ladies Dance on stage when I was told not to twice, pulling out my ball sack and having Ryan use it as a coaster LOL! Brunch was good the next morning was good to cause we seen a MEGA HOTTIE across the way from us and I was drooling! Seen the lions in the MGM which I never knew they had at all, we watched them play a little bit. I also remember Piranha and meeting the hottest shot boy there who fucked with me and I was sad to know he didn’t come over and hang out with me, being drunk and going to McDonald’s after the clubs in our hotel. It was just an amazing time in Vegas! and it couldn’t have been with the best group of friends ever! The night of the Britney concert now I was like a little girl there! I didn’t expect myself to go crazy like I did, Britney looks amazing and she was putting her all into the first 6 songs. She then got lazy cause she put her hair in a ponytail which means “okay I worked it out in the beginning not I can slake off”,except when she did Breathe on Me which included Lance Bass as the person who sat in the seat on the stage! I was very cute cause she was laughing while she did the number and we all totally caught her! I think my favorite song of the entire night was Radar by far! So the night ended with us going back to Krave and getting shit faced drunk! cause the next day I had to go home at like noonish sometime and we had to do it up! I think it was back to Krave and Piranha where I just know I was shitty as all hell, I have video but they wont be shown cause its not cute at all. This again was the best time ever and with really good friends that I love o pieces! Thank you guys again and I love you! Jim, Dallas, Ryan, Angel, Adam and Zak.
All I’m gonna say is i thought he was my Baby’s Daddy…but I will back down now cause I will be destroyed if I fuck with him after seeing this video! LMFAO I love you Diesel!!!
I don’t really get into my like personal life on here but today I am, I wanna get this off my chest and for everyone to read. Ive been unhappy since my birthday with the way I’ve been treated by my boyfriend, yes that’s right I said boyfriend. So I’ve done everything this far to keep and make him “Happy” and I get treated like shit, why? I have no clue I thought everything was gravy and going smoothly. I guess I thought wrong, outta no where I have been ignored except for text that are like 5 words which I don’t understand or get? So I wrote to him today and I just wanted an answer yes or no? I got nothing back and hes been online for 6 hours! so its obvious something is wrong but he wont tell me. I think its so sad that he couldn’t be a man and even tell me whats wrong, or if I did anything at all which I know I didn’t! I was bummed all day to the point where I was gonna cry… but then I heard this song today and it made me think to myself. FUCK THAT! I am a good guy and gave him love and didn’t do anything to deserve this and all I wanted was to be “Happy” and make him feel the same way. My feelings where really hurt but I said fuck this I did nothing at all wrong and I should be “Happy” and not let this get me down, I’m so not and I think venting about this and getting it off my chest has made me realize this boy won’t find anyone like me or have anyone give him the love and comfort I have! Maybe when he sees he fucked this up he will realize and call me, but I doubt it. Oh well I guess I’m gonna be the HAPPY one and just continue to be me and REAL and not keep secrets and other stuff.
Happy Valentine’s Day everyone! I was bummed today cause my boyfriend said he was gonna be doing the “family” thing today, so I wasn’t gonna be able to see him…Well I also haven’t heard from him all day which is LAME! Anyway today was a very fun day cause we went to the Zoo! my day was turned from bummed to AMAZING! There was all kinda animals there, a bunch I wanted to take home myself such as the Giraffe he was so cute! feeding him was fun, his tongue was as long as my arm lol! The Flamingos were nice and bright pink today instead of light pink, I also didn’t know it was something in the water that makes them pink. I was HOT today to which means were gonna start getting that triple digit heat soon which I’m just not ready for yet. The birds were talking to us saying “hello” “meow” and “shut up” which I dyed laughing at! cause it was telling the other bird to “shut up” when it was “meowing”. Teresa had to get on this guy about feeding the monkeys cheez-its! the guy says oh I couldn’t read which is why I didn’t finish high school. I thought to myself how retarded are you? there is fucking big ass signs all over the park that say DON’T FEED THE ANIMALS! The white rhino was also very cute and I wanted to take that home and put it in the backyard, which would have been fun but I think the neighbors would have noticed. I got to feed cute stingray’s they were very fun and interesting the way they get there food, it felt like a big suction cup and they were slimy but cute lol. I hope you all enjoy the pictures I took with my iPhone, I forgot my camera at home or I would have had better pictures! Oh I have a special video as well since its still Valentine’s Day! LOVE was in the air at the zoo!
I hope you enjoy! Happy Valentine’s Day once again and I hope everyone got to spend it with there partner or husband or boyfriend! I hope next
that’s all.
so I am okay thank you guys again so much MUAH!
which I’m just not ready for yet. The birds were talking to us saying “hello” “meow” and “shut up” which I dyed laughing at! cause it was telling the other bird to “shut up” when it was “meowing”. Teresa had to get on this guy about feeding the monkeys cheez-its! the guy says oh I couldn’t read which is why I didn’t finish high school. I thought to myself how retarded are you? there is fucking big ass signs all over the park that say DON’T FEED THE ANIMALS! The white rhino was also very cute and I wanted to take that home and put it in the backyard, which would have been fun but I think the neighbors would have noticed. I got to feed cute stingray’s they were very fun and interesting the way they get there food, it felt like a big suction cup and they were slimy but cute lol. I hope you all enjoy the pictures I took with my iPhone, I forgot my camera at home or I would have had better pictures! Oh I have a special video as well since its still Valentine’s Day! LOVE was in the air at the zoo!
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